I recall the last time you appealed it was also an apology but I was generally unconvinced then. Especially given you have 16 bans total including a previous perma before this one. A story of get banned, wait, apologize, repeat.
I appreciate and understand that you were "younger" when you made these mistakes but I think another symptom of youth is the inability to really comprehend (or care) about consequences, or long term consequences. "I was young im changed now" doesnt automatically erase your past. You aren't owed a fresh start by virtue of aging. Everyone ages.
I would not be comfortable with allowing you back on the server for the 17th time without you actually putting up something to lose, or having a real world consequence.
You can make a ticket on discord to inquire further.